Happy New Year to everyone!!
Today doesn't really seem like a new year to me. It's just like any other day actually. I think the main reason is because of the time-space distortion that every confined person will get.
Some of my friends are talking about their New Year Resolution. Come to think of it, I don't really have one actually. Maybe to pass BWC and get to Fighters?? Just perhaps lah. I'm just going with the flow for now. So I'm quite really brain dead nowadays. Walk also can fall down a few times. Had a good laugh at myself for not even able to concentrate walking.
Was at DTE and Summer Breeze for awhile after much persuasion by my friends. Honestly, the only things that I'm thinking of when in the taxi back home is to have a hot bath, see my family members and have a nice good sleep. As I said, I feel like its just like any other passing day. The takeaway from lecture today seems to apply:
*Having no vision and no action: Wasting time
Having vision but no action: Dreaming
Having action but no vision: Passing time
Having vision and action: Changing the world
*I added this sentence in myself.
HAPPY 2009!!! maybe?
Has made up my mind...
I shall at no point of life ever doubt myself ever again whether I can make it for this or for that.
I shall not be scared of this scared of that. Fuck it. JUST do whatever that I instinctively think I should do.
I shall take whatever shit that comes in my way.
I shall be more aggressive in my flying.
I will not stop until I put my name down on that F-16/F-15. It is going to be NFTC and not FWC.
My confidence breaks down and fades easily as I've found out about myself. With it gone, there goes my fighting spirit and the blur state of mind starts to set in. This is what is hindering my potential. I am right and I will ALWAYS be... FUCK YOU!!
Hows it going mate?
Apologies for not informing friends that I have came back Tamworth. Had been too busy recovering from jet lag(I get jet lag very easily I've found out), doing clearances and many other administrative and logistics stuff. I finally satisfied my craving for local food except a few more dishes such as sambal hang he,carrot cake and hokkien mee.
Cleared my heavy craving for tom yum soup today. Seriously tom yum soup in Australia is not even near half the standard of what I had today. Its that bland. This weekend is probably one of the most fun and enjoyable week I had for a long time. Stress and worries free. Highlights of the week:
Friday
- Tong Xiao Mahjong
- 1 hour of sleep
Saturday
- KTV from 11am till 6pm
- Japanese food for dinner
- ZOUK!!!
Sunday
- Meet Teh Gao, Donovan and Johnson for shopping spree and eating spree.
I'm not going to elaborate about the shopping and eating part. Its totally crazy and ownage.
I think I can post the photos and not get into trouble.
WORST Sortie
I flew my worst sortie ever since everything started 1 month back. It was really terrible. No improvement whatsoever from the previous sortie, instead it got worse. Nothing went right today.
I was in this 'daze mode' the whole day - which might explain why the sortie was that terrible. This 'daze mode' of mine always come visiting me at some point during a month. I wonder why also. Hope it doesn't carry on tomorrow, or else... I'm SCREWED!!!
Anyways, 3 of the guys are going back tomorrow and another 4 on Friday, wish them the best in their future. Their departure is somehow making me homesick. Seems like I can't make it back in time for my brother's Diver's POP as the earliest I will be back seems to be at least one and a half weeks later.
If 1 sortie=1 course of 'A' levels or slightly more, I have just took 10 'A' levels or more in a month!!
Yes... it is that stress..
Test Day!!
Good news and bad news my friends!!
Good News
I passed my test 1!!!
Bad News
Only 4 out of 11 who took the test passed. The last one is taking his test tomorrow. Hope that he passes tomorrow!!
The atmosphere starts to change after the test. Feel much more empty and lonelier now. Not any happier that I've passed. It isn't the same as when we first came here. Its much more lively and feel many more people helping me back then.
The human touch in this type of situation comes in. :(
